The Moment of Disintegration, Reformation
Posted on May 16th, 2008
by 
wanderer7
wanderer7
just before every major change in our lives, comes that period of chaos.
when we don't know we who we are, why we are doing the things we do
it is the "in between" phase, when we are no longer the old, but the new has not yet arrived.
We are a 'Shadow Person' for a time; just going through the motions of things, waking up, doing our time-honed routines; like a machine programmed
we feel empty, vacant; emptied our of the past, waiting for the future to full the void.
the old passed, the new not yet here
waiting.
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July 2008
Chaos=opportunity!
Isn't that grand?
:)
You've captured that moment in telling detail. Lovely! Not when youre in it , t hough. Then there's just a seeming numbness which is indescribable.
Yeah, what Meenkashi said.
There are moments like this in life. But, when in such a moment, it feels like your whole life is just that moment and nothing else. The real life changing moments aren't only when the past is empty and we're waiting for the future. Rather the utterly transformative moments are when the future is empty too. And, in that moment, its as if we stand outside of time, lost in the moment.
W7: spot on commentary. i'm at that point now, which is why i wrote this! feels like utter chaos in my head is oozing out into reality. working diligently to see the order i know exists within all this chaos.
Yeah thre may be chaos but I think there is a purpose to everything. Through it there is much to be learned, but in the meantime you just have to have faith that there is something bigger.
Yes. faith and doubt. chaos and order. Oscillating between.
Accepting. Allowing both to be.
When the Portal Keeper approaches, the Shadow intensifies.
W7: (and you other cute Cats) as the Shamans say, “Brother speaks for me”…
…and the closer we come to the Portal, the deeper the Raven says, “CA…HA…HA…”
Checkmate.
(I love you dudes)