Wanderer's Choice (launch 27)
Posted on Apr 21st, 2008
by 
wanderer7
wanderer7
my first uni
the wanderer returned from overseas
still a young man
barely eighteen years of age
just out of high school
university beckoned
the scholarship was too enticing
what looked to be a promising path
turned into the classic horror year
the questions were mounting
the doubts grinding
everywhere he looked for answers
none would he find
the studies were numbing
campus life cold and chilling
long hours of nothingness
set adrift into lifeless boredom
deadly unknowing
weeks and weeks of mental anguish
each accumulated like a growing crucifix
the pain in his steps, his weary head
no solace; none anywhere
the wanderer was isolated;
none could help him now
he had shed his past too fast
dug his own existential grave
delay, delay, wait and wait
none could help him now
wanderer, o wanderer
finding the light
the source of all truth and acknowledgement
a resonating sound like a gently beating kettledrum
it said: "the truth shall set you free"
the truth shall set you free; that was all
all that was said, all that was needed to be said
from that instant on, the wanderer's compass was set
to truth would he guide his spiritual star
to truth would he guide his spiritual star
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July 2008 
Where did you find things that are true?
hi martha!
tough question! thing is, we can only handle “certain levels” of truth at any time in our life … sort of like someone learning the piano, and only playing certain pieces …. they progress on their way.
Truths still are truths, but there are certain grades or profundities …. certain insights that seep themselves into you over time.
more to your question :-) … buddhism, yogananda, certain strands of conspiracy theory … but these would came later. Definitely more blogs about my spiritual journey coming soon!
cheers friend
Wow! Your answer about the various levels and qualities of truth really resonated with me. Yeah, for sure! So, good answer about just pointing toward the general boxes or places “buddhism” where you found truth. Makes sense… so ok, AND “certain strands of conspiracy theory”? Gee, I wouldn't have looked in THAT box! What is it about these ideas, without going into immense detail… I mean, WHICH ones?
I can relate to the feeling of being stripped to the bone while in school and shedding the past to fast and desolving the ego to soon. The concept presented by Michael Washburn called, “regression in the service of transcendance” has much meaning to me. I have found that in the turbulance of the dynamic spiritual ground I was put in a what could be called a Bipolar state by going for to much to quick.
I wanted to tackle my situation mostly alone, so I did, mindfully through the principles of buddhism. I would have large rushes of spiritual energy come up and then a crash into shadow. I have worked to control these energies and harness them for radical transformation. I continue to work a little with levels of Jhana but I mostly I do a body scan and an insight practice with my meditation. Resting and finding samadhi of the body. I have learned to direct and control the energies within my body and was able to open up an area of organic lesion in my cranium and ventricles of my brain. It was a literal opening up from within…..This was with much focus, concentration, mindfulness, and metta practice. I dropped out of school for a quarter to give the attention to my body and take control of the process. I have a solid grounding practice of mindfulness to keep myself in check. I have found that a lot of the growth is just becoming as awake as possible and normalizing the processes of the body so that I can reach my full potential and really just be normal. Now its about integration of peak experiances and reintigration with society. Becoming a chiropractor has allow me to realize the truth of the many of the processes in the body related to the spine and how we carry the body emotionally, chemically, and physically.
Seems I have wandered….
I am not sure why I shared all this right now….
The time seemed right for some reason…
LD